Why do I feel so disconnected with people, like I know them, I close to them but it was just some sort of temporary. We just need that one person to fully understand us but there is none.

I feel  so lost for no reason, the connection that I’ve built upon meeting people was useless in the end.
The people there you see, they aren’t going anywhere and I’m here, standing right beside them but there's a kind of detachment. It was as if I was a statue on a museum and they’re the tourist, they see me as something that attracts attention just for one moment then they suddenly lost interest.

I don’t blame them, I blame myself for not fully understand what I really want and what I really need.

Making friends is pointless.

I feel numb, and that’s the problem.

The intimacy are not there. We hug, we talk, we sleep, but that’s it.

It drove me crazy.

I was nowhere to be found.

As I shrugged I came to realize that this kind of temporary feeling are only hurting me, tearing me apart, eating me up, forking my flesh, erasing me.

I’m ready for someone to shot me on the back.

Wondering from where did it all go wrong?

Originally posted by floranymphea